I choose

I am NOT having the weekend to myself. I have to get my facility in order for the new manager I am training so decided that since I have to be at work, screw it, I will just stay home.

I am definitely gonna do it next weekend though, or so I say. I am promising myself that I will not go into work next weekend. Let's see how that promise goes. But I did do something for myself.

Since I am going to the new facility I am going to have to dress a little nicer than I do now. So...I went out and bought myself a few pieces of clothing, some new nail polish, new shoes, and just for good measure some new jammies (which are too tight, I am wearing them now).

When you are a mom and on a limited budget you sure feel guilty about getting yourself new clothes unless...your kids are pissing you off and then it feels like "Take that! I got myself stuff and not you nah nah boo boo!"

Seriously I do not feel one bit guilty. I think I am getting over the nervous part and starting to embrace the "I deserve this" part. Truth be told, I have worked hard. I know all of this is happening fast but I worked hard and I kinda campaigned for it. So then that makes this a "get what you ask for"moment. I asked for a promotion, I got it. Plus I think I am gonna be great at it because I am gonna work harder and more efficiently than anyone else. Not just because that is who I am but because I have nothing else in my world right now other than work. All of my "atta boys" and accolades only come from work.

I don't have a boyfriend or a small child that requires my attention. My teenagers openly pray that I die tomorrow (that may be a stretch) but anyway they have lives that I am not an important part of right now. I guess I am already preparing for the "empty nest" syndrome.

At any rate, work is what I have. I choose to be really, really good at it.

Think I will paint my nails now...