My Horse

Dreams. I have long bought into the notion that dreams tell us something about our subconscious selves. My latest dream is about a horse I discovered tied to the front porch that I had neglected for about a year. I had not fed the horse, exercised the horse, had absolutely forgotten the horse...until.

In my dream, a family that lived across the street (mom, dad, and 4 children) came to bring me a casserole and it was then, when I answered the front door that I saw and finally remembered the horse.

When the family left and it had sunk in that it had been a year since I had cared for the horse, I took the casserole to the horse, to feed it for the first time in a year (except for what little it must have received from eating the lawn which was also in disrepair). After feeding the horse, what little it would eat, I attempted to put the reigns on, there was no saddle only a blanket. I wanted to exercise the horse, to love and care for the horse. The horse did not fight me and was grateful for the attention. But the horse collapsed after only a couple of blocks. I got the horse back to the front yard and noticed the family that had brought the casserole were out in their yard.

I went to speak to them, hoping to explain why I had neglected the horse for a year. They offered no criticism, they only offered that they could take the horse to exercise it when they exercised their own horse. I completely rejected the idea, afraid they would keep the horse or the horse would like them more.

This dream so affected me that I was compelled to search for an explanation of the horse in my dream. Here is what I discovered:

The horse is your "power" your "strength" . It is true that for a year I have neglected my power and strength, but it is not dead. I have recently accepted help from "the family"; my own. I am feeding and nurturing and apologizing to myself for the neglect and abuse I have inflicted on myself (my horse if you will).

I know all of this may sound like hooey (wow, I'm getting old using the word hooey lol) but to me, it makes perfect sense of the dream. I'm just glad I noticed and remembered the horse before it was too late.