I felt something today that has eluded me for a very long time. The term is not often used by most people because I don't think it is an emotion that is often felt. The term is joy. I felt real joy today. I was driving home from a nice day at work where everything just seemed to click; thinking about my new job and the possibilities. The sun was shining, no strong winds and a very nice 77 degrees.
Nothing was irritating me or worrying me, how rare that has been in the last several years. I started to envision my future and it looked good, really good. Absolutely positively no negative thoughts whatsoever.
Websters definition of joy is exactly what I am feeling: 1 a: the emotion evoked by well-being, success, or good fortune or by the prospect of possessing what one desires...pretty cool huh?
If you have ever been extremely, and I don't use the term lightly, depressed, then you know how desperate you can feel. There were times in the last year that I thought I would never feel joy, I'm certain the word never even came to mind. How fabulous it feels to not feel that way anymore.
If you are someone that suffers with desperate feelings, just remember that any given Tuesday it can all change. And oh what joy when it does!
Malicious Extrapolation
9 years ago
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I dont know how to make it change. I wait and wait and wait but nothing seems to change. mayb it will soon.
ReplyDeleteto anonymous, it will change. As someone who lives with bi-polar disorder I can tell you that everything passes. whether it be sadness or joy. Use the depression to search your soul to see why you are having these feelings and to take control of them.
ReplyDeletegood luck and know that this too shall pass.