Has it occurred to anyone else that I am having my personal therapy recorded for all time in this blog? I must need therapy, what kind of nutcase would display their life for the world to see? Well, not exactly the whole world reading this, there are about 130 of you a day that tune in to see what I have screwed up today, and not exactly my whole life. At any rate, I have shared a lot of personal information on this site, most of it probably not very flattering. It would defeat the purpose if I only wrote flowery things about myself and my world (plus it would be harder to lie that much lol).
But a weird thing happened when I started keeping track of the visitors to the site, I got self conscious.
There are only a handful of you that post comments in the comment section, then there are about 20 of you that email me or IM me your thoughts on a regular basis. I have no idea who the rest of you are.
It makes me wonder if people are reading this and saying "oh thank god I'm not her"...wouldn't blame you if you did. I guess what is important for me is that sharing my crazy, screwed up world and thought patterns does seem to help. It might be the relative anonymity of it all, although I should really make up a name and put someone else's face up on this page if I want true anonymity (I didn't think this through very well LOL).
I guess this is my official warning...I am gonna have to lose the self conscious thing if I am to continue to benefit from all of this public sharing. Once upon a time, maybe 5 people were reading this, and I knew them well. As for the rest of you, I guess by now you kinda know me too.
I'm curious about you too. If the mood strikes you, post a comment and share something about you, you can do that completely anonymously.
Malicious Extrapolation
9 years ago
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I have played a lot of poker with you and was wondering what you are like. I like your sense of humor.
ReplyDeleteonce you put things out for others to share, you lost the "reality" of it. It's not like a private journal where you can pour out your inner feelings without fear of others seeing you as weak or imperfect.
ReplyDeleteIf you are totally honest you risk having others criticise and that is hard. But isn't that what this is all about? To get the feedback to see yourself as others see you and to learn and grow from it? It should be.
So that gives a person 2 choices, open themselves to criticism or write what they think will make them look good to the others reading it.
You haven't ever been a person that opened up to others easily and I saw something in your beginning ones that was new and open. The later ones are more like a running day to day commentary, but not real insightful.
you know who I am, whether you like me or not, you also know I'll be honest, and we know you don't like that. : )
I just like to read about someone elses life.
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