What I Now Call, My "Recovery"...

This time last year I couldn't see a future, now I can't see an end to all the exciting possibilities. What a difference a year makes and what a difference people make.

With encouraging words and actions there are people that have made a real difference in this last year of my life. People I never would have believed could or would. My ex-husband David, my long lost newly found cousin Misty, my long time friend Rhonda and my new friend April.

Each of these people contributed in their own way to what I am now referring to as my "recovery". My recovery from the brink, from depression, from hopelessness. I no longer cry from utter sadness and misery. I no longer see only the obstacles. I am no longer fearful.

My ex-husband David has provided an endless ear and an understanding that comes from being at the brink. We both know what it feels like and I don't see either of us visiting it again. He has known me all of my adult life and he knew what I needed to see the light at the end of the tunnel. He provided a safe place for me to be and took over a lot of my personal responsibilities until I was able to handle them again.

My long lost newly found cousin Misty miraculously appeared at a time when I really needed her wisdom. She doesn't know that her blog saved me from committing the unspeakable act of suicide. The pain she expressed over her sister's suicide kept me from taking that step. I could clearly see how people are affected instead of only seeing the relief I thought it might bring me. I won't ever consider that option again.

My friend Rhonda. She suffered greatly in her own personal hell but kept going and never once judged me or criticised me for the choices I had to make. She just kept being a friend. She got me out of the house when no one else could. For a while she was the only person I would answer the phone for.

My new friend April helped me get into my new career and has spent hours sharing her knowledge. My new friend April loves me for the person I am now.

This last year has been riddled with ups and downs. Last year I didn't feel very fortunate. This year I feel like a really really lucky girl and a really really happy girl!

Thanks Friends!