My Fair Share

I mentioned to someone the other day that I had had my fair share of men. It got me to thinking. I may have had my fair share of men, but I don't think I have had my fair share of good men. I started reminiscing about all the significant men that have been in my life romantically. I came up with about 8 (I'm sure if I had thought longer and harder I would have added and or subtracted from the list).

At any rate, here is the conclusion that I came to. Out of 8 significant relationships, I don't regret not being with any of them. You know how men and women alike always have at least one relationship they wonder "what if" about? I don't have one of those. I know that each relationship was never meant to be my lifetime relationship. I got some good and some bad out of each and every one of them, just never got the life partner vibe. I came close a couple of times.

All of this thinking made me wonder if it is me. Is there something about me that is noncommittal? I don't think so. I would commit with the right person for me. Then it hit me. I have not had my fair share of good men.

I have had the playboys and the bad boys. The arrogant rich man and the poor man with the chip on his shoulder. Then another revelation, I have also been all of those things. Ouch.

I definitely got what I asked for. I think I'm gonna ask for something new next time.