I have accomplished a lot in the last 3-4 months and I am hopeful for the immediate future.
But...
The last few days I have had a hard time staving off "the weeds". "The weeds", as I call them, are negative thoughts and feelings that one would generally associate with depression. Lately I don't know that it is as much depression as disappointment I feel. It's hard to forgive yourself for not living up to your own expectations.
I battle this disappointment in myself pretty much weekly, better than the previous daily battles.
I am not where I expected to be in my life, but holding on to hope I continue to remind myself that I am not dead yet. Yep, that is pretty much how I continue to find the motivation to move on, I will probably live another 30 or 40 years. So the good news is that I still have time to live up to my expectations, just not gonna be the timeline I initially had in mind.
Malicious Extrapolation
9 years ago
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Just remember that where we think we are supposed to be at any certain time in our lives may or may not be what is destined. Half of the fun of discovering ourselves is "going along for the ride" and letting things happen. At least this works for me...along with a healthy dose of denial.
ReplyDeletewherever you are in your life is where you are supposed to be. Might not be where YOU feel you should be, but it is where life thinks you should be, and you would have ended up there no matter what path you took.
ReplyDeletethere is a saying that it is better to hope than expect, for in expecting you invite disappointment, but in hoping you invite suprise.