Increasingly Worried and Angry

There are just some things that you can't bring yourself to post about. In my case it is the issues I am having with my daughter. I won't be revealing exactly what she is doing, but I feel compelled to express myself of some real emotions.

First there is worry then there is anger after that a tiny hint of guilt. That's it, those are the emotions that are overwhelming me lately.

I am worried about my daughter. I am increasingly angry at my daughter. I wonder if her father and I went wrong raising her.

I really wish I could say exactly what is going wrong with her but it is truly embarassing to be this childs parent right now. I would not want anyone to judge her based on these actions and I don't want anyone judging me because of her actions.

Her younger brother is extremely upset and worried about her, this effects her not. Her actions have effected everyone in the family so negatively. Some hard decisions are gonna have to be made about her immediate future....really tough choices.

What the hell, here it is....she ran away. My daughter is runaway.

Imagine a Droid

I am gonna have to recant what I said about Twitter. After last night, I am officially hooked on Twitter. I figured out the whole Twitter thing and now I love it. I suppose it is a lot like Facebook only way less time consuming.

Last night I was able to connect with Bill Maher from Real TIme on HBO and one of my all time fave movies/documentaries Religulous. Also connected with Joy Behar from The View. Reading their  tweets was hugely interesting and in Bill's case seemed quite personal.

Once I understood how to use the system I couldn't get off the site. I know what this is leading to...I am gonna break down and get on Facebook. Dammit I just know it! I have steered clear of that for so long but now I am sure I will cave. Especially now that my phone also has Facebook capabilities.

I am being swept away into the sea of technology and not hating it. It's weird in a way. Being so open to technology  suddenly I don't feel quite so old and stodgy. If this is what a Blackberry does for a person can you imagine what a Droid would do?

New-Fangled Gadget

I have moved into the 21st century. I bought a Blackberry. You may recall my dismay at not getting phone or Internet reception in my converted motel/liquor store/duplex/apartment. No longer an issue. I changed carriers and upgraded the phone. Oh the things the instruction booklet claims this phone can do!

I feel certain I will never know the full capabilities based on the fact that it took me 2 days to send a text and 4 days to be able to get onto the Internet using this new- fangled gadget. Today I was able to sync my email to the phone, not near as technical as it seemed. Now I can get all those ads for SINGLES and Hot Horny Housewives right on my phone! No need to check my computer email for those enticing Nigerian bank offers, they come to the phone. Oh the things this gadget can do.

I also signed on for Twitter. What a complete waste of time! I honestly do not know the purpose of that crap. Sending out a single thought to no one in particular and for no reason at all. It's not really a place to vent properly as is blogging.  Twitter gauges for you the amount of words you can use to get your point across, so it ends up being just an outburst, it shuts you up so you don't have to do it yourself. Liken it to turrets if you will.

I guess the bottom line is even though I will never know all the capabilities, even though it seems a whole lot of useless crap, I love that damn Blackberry!

Biggest Loser Contest

It's official. I have decided that I cannot lose the weight that I want to unless I am competing, therefore, I am organizing a Biggest Loser contest in the facility in which I work. The contest officially starts July 1 and will go until December 1. After having the sign up sheet posted for about 15 minutes, I already have 6 signatures. I expect by end of week I will have 20.

Each person will pay $20, teams will be formed by random drawing and only weight percentages will be posted and not actual weights of the contestants. I will be the official weigher so that only 1 person really knows how much you weigh.

At the end of the contest the winning team gets all the money.

This is either going to be one of the greatest things ever, or totally embarassing. I'll let you know.